Slap in the Face

Don't you know how in the movies when someone gets hysterical someone else slaps them and they are all better. Well I have been metaphorically slapped. And I am so happy now. I have been slapped by the source of my hysteria. I needed it. I was getting ridiculous. I'm pretty much back to normal. I hate my situation, but thats normal. I'm not fabricating a situation that will not work or never happen. I started to become insane. Insanity is defined as doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I was definetly insane. Right now I don't know what to do to change my behavior in order to get different results but I'm working on it. I think I got caught up too fast for the sake of getting the satisfaction I've been wanting for so long. Maybe I need to accept the fact that it might not happen. Ever. And I know ever is a strong word but to me ever means in the next 5 years. Or maybe more. 5 years is a very loooooonnng time though. I'm just glad that now I am able to wake up and smell the reality.