Free At Last!!!

I'm finally home for the summer. I had a false alarm when I tried to leave on wednesday when all my shit wouldnt fit into one truck. Me and Jai-girl had to go all the way back up to the burg to get the rest. Going back after just being their was really strange. I speed packed that car and I think I made my friends crazy with my frantic-ness. The road trip with jiggy was the best (even though she slept, but it's cool, she needed it). I'm so happy to be home I can't hardly stand it. I can't keep still. Nothing can break this mood. Even the nasty rain outside.

On pins and needles

I'm so close to home right now I can smell it. I'm so close it's driving me crazy. Every since last summer the only thing I have been really looking forward to is this summer. Why does it seem so appealing to me? I have no idea what the summer will bring. I feel like I might be setting myself up for disappointment because I have set my expectations so high.

My Sexy Type

I am Sweet n' Sexy.

"You're not overt about your sexuality, put you are not purposely hiding it either-- two traits that naturally draw people to you. You possess an understated zest for life, and a way of approaching the day with a can-do attitude that draws people to you. As a teenager, were you maybe a little on the quiet side? Even if you weren't, it's clear that underneath your occasionally understated statements, you have an undeniable sweetness that attracts people who see that special something burning from within.

"Is it the way you carry yourself? That quiet sparkle in your eye? Those who know you intimately can't wait to uncover your sweetness. What's hiding behind that innocent smile? A little devil perhaps? A tattoo in a seductive spot saved only for your lover? Possibly, but you're so good, you'll never tell. Or will you?"

My Goddess Groove

I'm a Chart Toppin' Knock-Out!

"Your goddess groove is like the Top- 40 charts: you're always a favorite with the crowds whether you try to be or not. People are drawn to you because you're not afraid to state your opinion, ask questions about the world around you, and even make a fool out of yourself-- if it'll cheer up a good friend or family member.

"You're a trusted addtition to any gathering, and people want to hear what you have to say. Your advice is like the catchy tune that stays in their heads for days. You're the true original-- often imitated but never duplicated. If others pick up on your popular style, just try to remember to take it as flattery. After all, you were their source of inspiration.

"Your creativity seems to know no bounds-- it has a head-bobbing groove that lends a noticeable flair to the artist inside. Whether it's music, painting or photography, you're always looking for another outlet. It doesn't matter where you go-- leave it to your family and close friends to provide the familiar hook that always keeps you grounded. You have what it takes to reach your goals in life, so get ready to ride your goddes groove to the top of the charts."

Home Sweet Home.....but not for long

So I'm sitting in my mother's room at home. Laying around, watching Beetlegeuse, and socializing on IM. I came home tuesday night because I felt like my last days were gonna be spent in a dorm room and I was not goin out like that. I have been sooooo sick for quite sometime. My wonderful mommy came and rescued me from the evil environment of school. I found out at the emergency room that I am real sick and have been put on bed rest. But I also believe that it could have been psychological. The moment I was home I felt ten times better. But then I was instantly stressed because there is only a like 2 more weeks left of school and I have so much stuff to be doing. So many commitments I have to go through with. Just my luck, I have been feeling like the most unluckiest person in the universe lately. If something bad can happen it has happened to me over the last few months. I've been trying to take everything with a grain of salt (whatever that means) but I can only grin-and-bear-it for so long. So I am home and it feels great. I love this place. But I am lonely and still feel bad because of the sickness. And I'm finally hungry. And I mean I want a whole pizza, 3 double cheeseburgers, chilli cheese fries and a few steaks type hungry. My older man called me today and I have been in the air every since. He is amazing, we have such a weird connection. I mean he said he called to see how I was doing. I haven't talked to him in a good few weeks. Turns out when he calls I am bed ridden and home. How crazy. He definetly put a smile on my face today. But then I got to think how lonely I am again. Almost everyone and I mean EVERYONE in my sorority is going to our formal this weekend. I thought me and a few other people weren 't goin but turns out now that I'm pretty much the only one. I can't even go anyway if I could. Not allowed. Then I was thinking how much I'm ready for a boyfriend. I know I know. This whole thing again. I just need that security. I'm getting so bored with my current situation a want a change. But my older man can't be my boyfriend and school is almost over and I really don't want a boyfriend over the summer because I plan on running buck wild (as always) so I guess I'm just stuck in this state for awhile. AAAAAAGAGGGHHHHHHHH! I feel like rippin my hair out. And now all this blogging is making me fatigued I'm outtie. only for a lil bit.