You Are a Margarita

You aren't just the life of the party, you are the party! You mix a good drink, bust out some great music, and know how to get down.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

It's literally killing me

My life is completely out of control right now. Where do I start? Maybe school. I can't ever concentrate or get done all things I should get done. But the thing is I really couldn't tell you what I do instead of the things im suppose to. Maybe the partying. But its hard to cut down, even though I said I would. When everyone, and I mean EVERYONE around you is going out or doing something I feel completely left out. I know that sounds really immature but its true. My situation with a certain male is completely fucked as of today. Or at least it will be in the immediate future. Why does this always happen to me. It's sooooo scary and I always feel like its my fault. I can't believe this is the third time. Maybe I should take the advice and really revaluate what I'm doing with myself. But honestly is the ones that I really care about that it happens with or when I'm really feeling someone it happens and I feel like I'm a complete fuck up. I know it's not completely my fault but I'm the one who has to say something. Or not say something if that's what I choose to do. There really is no good way to do this. No way to make it painless, which is why it's killing me.

Letter to Myself

Dear Me,
People have been saying how much you've changed. Especially in times when the two of you are in contact. I've noticed you can't stop talking and you're almost always smiling and happy. But I have seen that sometimes you put yourself down because of these feelings. You convince yourself that if you think about it too much you'll ruin it. You do this because you believe it's been true in the past. And you have these feelings but so what. You can keep them to yourself or even just share with your roommate. But she, and others dont' understand why you don't express yourself to the subject. You shouldn't be afraid. But you are, I know. I know you want to wait, but don't waste your time waiting forever. If you feel it's not worth it then get out. But for now enjoy yourself.
I love you, Me.