40 days and 40 nights

As of yesterday there is only 40 days until my 21st birthday. I thought that it would be a good idea to challenge myself and do a "Lent" before my birthday. To give something up. I thought about sweets. But everytime I try that it never works. I am a sweets fanactic. And I had two chocolate chip cookies and peanut m&ms yesterday. I need to decide by today though because I'm at day 39 on the count down as it is. If I can't come up with anything else then it will have to be sugar. It will be really really healthy for me if I do.

Here I am, perfect as I'm ever gonna be

I have noticed that when a person is trying to go through a transformation others are not always considerable to the new portrayal. That sucks. There will always be those people, and sometimes close friends who just don't believe a person can change. Regardless of whats been told to them or even what they see first hand. Like a person who is considered a binge drinker decides they are going to cut down. The first party or social setting that they attend with alcohol and they decide not to drink, what happens? Instead of being supportive and mature, majority of the time ridicule comes into play. That, in my opinion, is incentive to fall back into the same behavior you are trying to change. Not being accepted, especially when it comes to things that you are in control of, is humiliating and gives a person the sense of failure. I think that people, especially friends, should take things as they are. If a friend has confided in you something that they are trying to change for the better, then congradulate them or help them along their journey. And if you honestly think its ridiculous then just leave your comments to yourself and if the person does happen to fail then you'll have that satisfaction of knowing within yourself. But that's exactly where it should stay, within yourself.

Girls vs. Grown Women

"Girls vs. Grown Women"


Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and makeplans.
Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits in.

Girls want to control the man in their life.
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.

Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it; using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come home.
Grown women make you want to come home.

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all their man's time (i.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends.

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Grown women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that that was just one man.

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their
affection, ignoring all 'signs'.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you
back-and move on, without bitterness.

Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women and their male friends.

Don't call me a quack

The saying goes, "If it walks like a duck, quacks like a duck or looks like a duck, it's probably a duck". But I believe if you call it a duck then it is going to be a duck. Which brings me to my point. A man should never never NEVER call a women, especially one they are interested in, a negative characteristic. For example, the moment you call a women crazy or a bitch is the moment she becomes crazy or a bitch. If you think she was acting that way before you said it, observe what happens after. You asked for a crazy bitch, and guess what, you got it. So a word from the wise, instead of a negative characteristic trying telling her that she's sweet, understanding, patient, or has an interesting outlook. See how much that betters the situation.

Ponder ponder ponder

Some things I've heard before:

Why is it illegal to park in a handicapp parking spot, but there are no penalties for using a handicapp stall in the bathroom?

Why do we park on driveways and drive on parkways?

Somethings I think about:
How come adding the adjective "pretty" to something makes it a little bit worst? Ex: "pretty hot", "pretty ugly" (which is an oxymoron), "pretty expensive".

Why are toliet seat covers made of the thinnest tissue paper in the world but is suppose to some how protect our fannies from germs? Personally I would like a toliet seat cover made out of industrial government plastic, or latex, or disposable steel.

Lunch @ my desk

What I had for lunch: Honey Nut Oatmeal and BBQ fritos.

I was thinking the other day that all men are NOT the same. Women just allow themselves to be treated the same and then complain and blame men when they are not getting what they want out of a certain situation. I realized this because like I've said before I am a insane, and insanity is defined as doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome. Or something like that, the symantics maybe a little different.

So what else is on this mind lately? School mostly. But on a deeper note love as usual. I've actually been introduced to two situations where they will essentially be the "guinea pigs" for my approach of trying something different to get a different outcome. So far so good.