I'm 20

I went home this weekend. Was only there for a little while. Went to fredrick for a friends birthday party on friday, then drove to Eastern Shore with mom to go see little bro, then hung out at Ocean City for a bit. Sunday came back to school had a little drinky to celebrate my birthday. My birthday was one of the best birthday's ive ever had. But now its over and thats sad. I'm not sure how im adjusting to being 20 yet. School is getting hard, there is so much work. Nothing else really substantial is going on (well, maybe one thing but i'd rather not discuss at this moment). I had rambling with no meaning so I'm cutting it short.

Boring boring boring

Ok so my situation hasn't been completely boring but it hasn't been mind blowing. Recently I have been antisipating my trip home this weekend. I'm not sure how I feel about turnig 20. I want to be a teenager forever, but still be legal to drink (like that's really holding me back). I need to find out something to do with my emotions. They get pretty outta control and it's a little scary. I've moved into a new room with a different roommate (one of my pledge sisters) and I love it. It's nonstop laughing and just an all around good situation. I have been contiplating relationship oppurtunities, but what else is new. I'm not even sure if I have any options though. Oh well, I'm gonna get off here before my crazy emotions begin to surface and because I really have nothing substantial to say.
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What to do

The first week of school was hectic. Parties all week and all weekend. My sister's roommate left school on friday, which is cool because now I plan on moving in to her room with her, which will be a lot better for me I think. My mother took her trip to Arizona and returned safely. I have to say that this first week at school was one of the best first weeks I've ever had since being in school. Me and my soon to be roommate have decided that we are gonna find either boyfriends or just one main guy in order to keep us grounded. I'm not sure which one I want yet. I kinda have a "main" guy but that is not always reliable. And I'm not sure if I can handle a boyfriend now. Plus it will probably take a few months to really ground a boyfriend because I don't have many perspectives in the picture. There is a guy from home that I met working at the factory. I knew the first time I hung out with him that he was a keeper. But I'm not to sure how he feels about me. We haven't had many (sober) conversations since I've been at school but we have talked. And I don't doubt that he would come to visit. Eventhough gas is a million dollars a gallon now. I dunno. I really miss a lot of people that aren't in school anymore. But there are three that I miss the most. So what to do about finding a significant other situation. It would be banging to have someone up here to hang out with, to go places with and invite to all the stuff my sorority will be having but is that what I really want? I think so. I've been ready for this for months it just hasn't been ready for me yet.